Things are good.
Bills are getting paid, there's food in the fridge, the car is running. I have my family, friends, and a good job.

And to top things off, I'm having a glass of champagne while watching a cool movie with the windows open and letting the rain air come in.

I love autumn and winter.
Halloween's coming up. :)

Gotta keep focusing on the positive, and fixing the negative.

The lady from 7 Elephants called me this morning as I was getting ready to go for another interview in the City of Industry. She offered me the position that I wanted, and I accepted.

I start tomorrow.
Helllssss yeahhhh!
I HAVE A JOB NOW!
It's in Vernon, right off of Soto.
I'm stoked!

But on another note, God is a funny funny wo/man.

I got the job, right, but a couple hours later the Gas guy came and shut us off. Hahaha. Fuck. Now I can't take hot showers or cook. So I guess I'm going to be a smelly anorexic.

It's been a really chill weekend.


In other news,
I completely adore Lindsay Lohan and Sam Ronson.




Oh, and WTF. I am officially now 5'7".
Ugh. I keep growingggggg.

i had a really amazing weekend.
san diego is such a pretty city.
i'm getting used to the contacts scratching my eyeballs, haha.

mannnnn. my glasses broke in half! this sucks so much. now i'm stuck wearing contact lenses that scratch my eye balls. ughhh.

You know what pisses me off?
He told me he was falling in love with me.
Then the next day he tells some ugly chick that he wants to have sex with her again, just let him know when.
You know what else pisses me off?
I was actually falling in love with him.
I'm a douche.

Hi, I'm 21 years old now.
Nancy and my mom are taking me to a dive bar, hahaha. Woo!

SUNSET JUNCTION THIS WEEKEND.
I'm stoked.
Autolux and Blonde Redhead on Saturday.
Hot Hot Heat on Sunday.
:)<3

I've been in this town my entire life, I've seen the way people change to fit in, I've seen the trends go by, I've seen it all. I am so sick of this fucking scene that is going down right now, and has been going down for a long time now. When will it change? It pisses me off that I used to have a bit of power over this, and now there's nothing I can do. 

I know we're all young, and it's all fun, but do they have to be fucking stupid too? There's a time and place for everything, and these people dont know how to switch from partying to real life, and no one actually cares about anything anymore. 

When I'm in these parties, I see the kids and they all look so tired and I know they want something more than getting thrased in a backyard with the same fucking music every weekend. And I want to be able to give it to them again. Hell, I want to be able to get it to myself again.

i'm soooo sick of these talentless "bands" in east la.
since when has a keyboard and a mic been considered a band? seriously?
i miss guitars, drums, bass, i miss TALENT in east la.
we dont have iftc anymore, but thank GOD for adoration.

i miss music.
fuck, i miss the shop.

i do things really late. i shouldve accomplished a few things by now, but i havent. but the point is that atleast i'm going to. and atleast i do end up doing shit. i always come around at my own time, no matter how ridiculously slow that is. 

i have 10 days to change my family's life.

i wonder what it feels like to actually have a dad in your life.

carlos makes me so happy, and so mad. haha. 
we went to knotts yesterday, and stood at the rodeway inn overnight. 
by far, the best hotel/inn/whatever i have ever stayed at. we had a lot of fun. 
we go on some crazy adventures.
damnit, he does some cute things for me.

It's funny how people think that they're so cool for talking to Oscar and Vargas, and treat us as if we have no right to even speak to them, when they're basically our family, and when we're the ones who are responsible for those scene cunts even knowing them. Hahaha. This girl was like to my brother, "Arent you the kid who tries to hangout by the DJ?" Hahaha. Tries? WTF. My brother told her good though. People don't evennn know who the hell they're talking to.

Off topic.
BOB!!!!!! Why'd you rank on me?! I came back to a Bobless home... it was so cold. Hahaha. AND MY COUSIN IS HERE.

Life is just one big fucking game, isn't it?


Hmmm.. Alright.

It's crazy how a song can remind you of an entire period of your life. Or atleast parts of it. I'm listening to the Coldplay X&Y album, and it reminds me of my crazy summer of '05 which I spent most of with Jaime. Good times. I love this album. It makes me want to drive around and take photos of random places.

I'm still up. I probably wont be sleeping today.

I'm honestly really glad that I take so many pictures of everything. Looking back on them helps to remind me that I've led a pretty good life, and it helps me forget all of the bad.

I miss Val G! I think she might be mad at me.

Second entry of the night. I'm on a roll.

My brother's friends Adrian and JC are cool. 
I had a crazy weekend.  I was in Colton with my mom on Saturday, and we almost died like 3 times on the way over there. Then once we were finally back in LA, we went to this party with my bro and Adrian, but it was raided by the time we got there. Then we headed over to Victor's and were hippies on the lawn, where Oscar then started to sing .."all we are saying.. is give peace a chance" to the sheriffs that came to bust the mexican party that was going on right next door. Funny stuff. Then on Sunday I hung out with Carlos at the beach. It was cute. But then today he pissed me off. I don't like talking to him when he's in a bad mood. I don't take bullshit. And he started throwing all this crap in my face about things, and I didn't even know how to respond. He obviously likes being in control, and I gotta get that ball back in my court. He better fucking stop acting stupid, or else I'm gonna sick some demons on him, haha.

Oh! I saw Mark and Amanda today for like 45 minutes! I missed them! I think we're hanging out tonight, which would technically be Wednesday morning since Mark gets out late, but if we do it should be rad. So, Mark got a car and he stopped by my house to show my mom and I. Then he took me to pick up my brother and JC up at Adrian's. Then we took JC home, and I chatted with Amanda for a bit in the car about asian temples in parks, hahaha. Then I get inside my house and am told to go pick up Bob, so my family packed up and went to pick up Mr. Arellano. Now, my mom, Bob, and I are awake doing a bunch of nothing and acting demonic, haha.

I'm hoping to get a job at Kinkos and join the work force.

It's a crazy life.

I went away with Carlos this weekend, and it was pretty much amazing. But now hes pissing me off, so I gotta slap him around or something. I don't take bullshit. I'm such a dude.

Off topic, but why are girls so fucking jealous of eachother? And why do we have to throw it in peoples faces that theyre just jealous of us, when in fact, we're the ones jealous and threatened by them? Girls are weird. We're so fucking threatened by eachother, and we can't trust eachother at all, because we really know that we're just going to shittalk about eachother anyway. Sometimes I wish I was a guy, because theyre more rational... to an extent. Actually, fuck it, I like being me because I see all sides of everything. I wish more people were like that, and thought things out before doing it instead of just acting out and making themselves look like fucking idiots.

I do wish I didn't let things get to me so easily, because it just pisses me off.

I'm just glad that 99% of my friends are male.

Sometimes, I just like being me even with all the bullshit I've been through.

HAHA